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Back frm Somerset this afternoon. I cant believe that i actually felt worst aft going thr. I cant believe that my heart is not touched by the songs anymore. I cant believe that all this dosent matter to me anymore. Trying to help myself but the situations dont seems to. Its been a long time ever since i last cried so hard; under my blanket. Feel better after i stopped myself frm thinking. Aft nt being a ldr, i realised i didnt had a Friend in church at all. I had ppl. Thrs no reasons left thr tt can mk me return. Goodbye my .....